The Promise

I think this was running through my head this morning simply because I was listening to the Valentine Mixed CD my wonderful husband made for me a few years ago as I was on my way home last night.  This was the last song I heard as I pulled into my driveway….

 

When in Rome

The Promise

If you need a friend,
don’t look to a stranger,
You know in the end,
I’ll always be there.

And when you’re in doubt,
and when you’re in danger,
Take a look all around,
and I’ll be there.

I’m sorry, but I’m just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don’t sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you wait around a while, I’ll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you I will.

When your day is through,
and so is your temper,
You know what to do,
I’m gonna always be there.

Sometimes if I shout,
it’s not what’s intended.
These words just come out,
with no gripe to bear.

I’m sorry, but I’m just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don’t sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
But if you wait around a while, I’ll make you fall for me,
I promise, I promise you…

I’m sorry, but I’m just thinking of the right words to say. (I promise)
I know they don’t sound the way I planned them to be. (I promise)
And if I had to walk the world, that make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you I will.

 

He did, make me fall for him.  He still does.

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Break Away

Here’s the song I woke up with running through my head.

“Breakaway”

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I’d just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I’d end up happy
I would pray (I would pray)

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

[Chorus:]
I’ll spread my wings and I’ll learn how to fly
I’ll do what it takes til’ I touch the sky
And I’ll make a wish
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget all the ones that I love
I’ll take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jet plane, far away (I will)
And breakaway

[Chorus]

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging around revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me but
Gotta keep moving on, moving on
Fly away, breakaway

I’ll spread my wings
And I’ll learn how to fly
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But I won’t forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk
Take a chance
Make a change
And breakaway, breakaway, breakaway

The second part of the first verse really seems to apply to me right now.

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I prayed I could break away

We’ve lived here in this house for 5 years.  I still feel like a stranger in my own town.  We know a few people, but it seems every time we try to reach out, we are invisible.   I find myself longing for next year, longing to buy that RV and break away, follow our dreams and tour the country.

I’ve always been a gypsy at heart.  I moved around a lot as a kid. Fourteen schools between kindergarten and 12th grade.  After graduating with my Associate in Surgical Technology I put in my year of experience needed to be able to start traveling, doing 3 month temp contracts with hospitals around the country.  I did that for almost 13 years.  Only when I was near family did I ever consider doing more than one contract at the same place.

Then I came to Syracuse.  That was back in 2001 or 2002.  I’ve been here since, helping my parents, meeting my husband on eHarmony, and putting down roots for the first time in my life.  My parents moved to Arizona last year, Jim and I feel stuck in a house we no longer wish to own, and all the “friends” we thought we had disappeared when my parents moved.  Apparently, we were just  an extension of my parents, not friends in our own right.

So here we sit, trying to survive as we prepare to break away, take a chance, try something new.

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Prayer

As I was reading all the blogs I follow, this one stood out this morning.

In the season of rain, pray for rain.

The GypsyMama

Go check it out, you’ll be glad you did.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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When God Speaks

I love it when God speaks the same thing to different people to reinforce what He is saying.

That is just what happened this weekend.

My pastor at Vineyard spoke on the same thing I blogged about on Friday.  We even used some of the same scripture references.

I believe God is trying to tell us something….

Love MY way.

Stop judging each other.

Let the Holy Spirit worry about cleaning everyone up, you just worry about your stuff and let the Holy Spirit clean you up.

I’m learning to live my life, love God and love my neighbor.  As Mike Warnke used to say, “If you’re busy doing the do’s, you don’t have time to do the don’ts.”

I’m trying to fill my life with all that God tells me to do and let the do not’s work themselves out.

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‎”If you judge people, you have no time to love them” ~~Mother Teresa

A friend of mine put this as her status on Facebook.  I usually just skim over the statuses as some of them, mine included, are really just drivel that no one is interested in.  For example mine this morning…

Coffee, lots of Coffee, why couldn’t I sleep well last night? Oh yeah, my mattress needs to be turned and it’s really uncomfortable.

Really, no one is interested, but we post things like this because we’ve become so disconnected from actual community that we are willing to accept any semblance of connection with others.  But I digress, that’s not my point today.

 

My point is that this post stopped me in my tracks yesterday.

This quote stayed will me all night.

These words haunted my mind.

 

We all do it, we all judge in different ways.  From little judgements about what people wear out in public, “Oh dear, doesn’t she own a mirror at home”.  To big ones, “Wow, who do they think they are, they need to stop X,Y, and Z before they even THINK about sitting in a pew next to me on Sunday.”

Judgement.  We all do it.  And to a certain extent it is necessary.  I’m using good judgement when I refuse to get into a car with someone who has been drinking, I’m using better judgement when I prevent them from driving all together.  I use judgement all the time raising my son, I have too, I need to teach him to make good choices.  So when does it cross the line from good judgement to bad?

Matthew 7:1-5

“Do not judge, or you too will be judged.

For in the same way you fudge others, you will be judged, and with the measure you use, it will be measured to you.  

Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?  How can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of you eye,’ when all the time there is a plank in your own eye?  You hypocrite, first take the plank out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to remove the speck from your brother’s eye.”

And in Mark 12:29-31

“The most important one,” answered Jesus, “is this: ‘Hear, O Israel, the Lord our God, the Lord is one.  Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’  The second is this: ‘ Love your neighbor as yourself.’  There is not commandment greater than these.”

Love is the key.  To turn Mother Teresa’s quote around, If we are busy loving people, we won’t have time to judge them.  Christ himself called us to love others as God loves us.  To forgive others as God forgives us.

It’s not our job to straighten out our neighbor, Christ didn’t say, Love God and convince your neighbor to do the same.  He said Love God, and LOVE your neighbor.  He also said to love your enemies not just those who agree with you.  Not just those who are living as you think they should, but EVERYONE.

 

That includes the homeless man you pass on your way to work.

That includes the young mother who is smoking in her car with her baby in the back seat.

That includes the homosexual couple who moved in down the street.

That includes that cranky coworker who never has anything nice to say and doesn’t really pull their weight.

 

What would loving these difficult-to-love people who God has put in our path look like?

It’s much easier to tell you what it wouldn’t look like.

 

It wouldn’t be ignoring them.

It wouldn’t be preaching morality to them.

It wouldn’t be avoiding them, hoping someone else will talk to them and get them to act right.

 

It may be getting the homeless man some coffee on a cold day.

Befriending the young mother and helping to reduce the stress she is under.

Inviting that new couple into your home and becoming their friend.

Listening, truly listening to that coworker, and praying for them, they are hurting.

 

Loving the unlovable, befriending the friendless, helping the hurting.

Mark 2:15-17

While Jesus was having dinner at Levi’s house, many tax collectors and “sinners” were eating with him and his disciples, for there were many who followed him.  When the teachers of the law who were Pharisees saw him eating with the “sinners” and tax collectors, they asked his disciples: “Why does he eat with tax collectors and ‘Sinners’?”

On hearing this, Jesus said to them, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.  I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

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The longer I am away…

I am finding that the longer I go without writing a post, the harder it is to write.  I feel like I should have something monumental to say for my absence or some insight to show that I’ve been engrossed in an in-depth study.

Yet the truth is that I spent the Month of May in an allergy medication fog and out-of-town 2 out of 4 weekends plus a 4 year olds birthday party and Mother’s Day.  It all took its toll and I am still recovering.  I had been getting up well before The Boy to spend some time in prayer, bible study, and time writing posts.  However, with the summer sun rising earlier, so is my son.  I can only get up so early of a morning and yet still stay up to spend time with my husband of an evening.  Unfortunately, what has taken a back burner on my priorities list is writing.

I will try to write more, and maybe now that I have posted once again, it will come easier.  For those who have hung in there, thank you.

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Backwards Thinkig

There are more verses to this song but this is the one I woke up singing……

Lord, we need Your power, Lord, we need Your power 
Your kingdom in this hour, Lord, we need Your power 

Send Your power to build Your kingdom 
Send Your power to free the captives 
For Your power it is the answer 
To the hunger in our hearts, oh Lord 

We need Your touch, oh Lord 
We need You, send Your power

(Casey Corum)

I’ve been under the mistaken impression that I was to work to build His kingdom.  I was to convince the world they need Jesus and to turn from their sin. But that’s not Biblical.  I’m called to love them.

Christ gave us 2 commands.

1)Love the Lord your God with all your heart, mind, strength, and soul.

2)Love your neighbor as yourself.

All else hangs on these two.  Yet, many times we get the “all else” before these two and wonder why our lives seem off kilter.

Preaching at a lost and hungry world isn’t going to save them.

Repeatedly telling them they are going to hell isn’t going to get them to listen to what else we have to say.

If we don’t show them the LOVE of Christ, they will never accept the cleansing power of His blood.

On second thought, the first two verses are very relevant today.

Lord, we need Your touch, Lord, we need Your touch 
You’re reaching out to us, Lord, we need Your touch 

Your touch brings freedom 
Your touch brings healing
Your touch is the answer 
To the hunger in our hearts, oh Lord 

Lord, we need Your grace, Lord, we need Your grace 
Your merciful embrace, We need Your grace 

Your grace brings forgiveness 
Your grace brings acceptance 
Your grace, it is the answer 
To the hunger in our hearts, oh Lord 

What are you doing today to usher in God’s touch, God’s grace, and then God’s power.

I plan on just showing God’s love to anyone I come in contact with and let Him worry about how to use His power.

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